Posted on November 5, 2011 - Filed Under Rev. Jim
With the realization that she saw nothing as it is now, Sequethia became extremely frightened. She had the thought, so what is really true, and what is really real? If my thoughts and feelings aren’t true or real, am I true or real? This was just too much for her to bear, so she said, “aaaaah, screw it” and went on with her day, hoping that her thoughts would return to “normal” so that she wouldn’t be so uncomfortable.
As she left for work, the book “A Course In Miracles” that her cousin Gail gave her before she died, crossed her mind. Gail and Sequethia had always been close, and their close relationship is described in this link (Gail). She had looked at the book from time to time, but always put it down. It seemed to echo many of the realizations that Sequethia had, yet it seemed so foreign to her.
Quite honestly, she had actually thrown the book down several times because the information in it was so radical, and so startling that she had a violent reaction to it. It seemed so full of double talk, inverted sentences and senseless words.
She then realized that A Course In Miracles was actually a gradual, stepwise way to begin to release her from the tyranny of her thoughts, so she decided to pick it up again. She thought maybe this book can finally help me to master these thoughts so that they no longer terrify me. On her way out the door, she grabbed the book, and randomly opened it to Lesson 10 “My thoughts don’t mean anything”.
This idea, “My thoughts don’t mean anything” crystallized what Sequethia had come to realize during her most recent experience. She knew that by repeating that truth “My thoughts don’t mean anything”, she could begin to release herself from all the unproductive, erroneous thought patterns that didn’t serve her.
So can you.