Posted on November 18, 2011 - Filed Under Rev. Jim
As Sequethia left for work, she remembered the book, A Course In Miracles that her cousin Gail gave her before she passed (for more information on Gail you can click on Gail’s name anywhere it appears). She remembered her struggles “getting into” the book, with all its radical theories, and inverted language. She wished her thoughts could return to “normal”. So she decided to have a “normal” day with “normal” thoughts and left the house.
On the way to work, she had the “normal” thoughts about her finances and the fact that 3 credit cards were maxed out and she had to pay her real estate taxes, and she probably wasn’t getting a raise this year because of her infamous blowup in the marketing meeting (for more information on the blowup, you can click on this link: blowup ). She had her “normal” thoughts about meeting a man, and got depressed knowing that at her age, there seemed to be few eligible, available men (and she had the underlying thought that she needed a man in her life in order to be “happy”). She had her “normal” thoughts about her friends, some of whom only seemed to call her when they wanted something, or needed a listening ear, and she became aware of resentments and grievances she held against many of the people who were “closest” to her. She had her “normal” thoughts about her daughter, and how her mother (were she still alive) would be appalled at the way Sequethia had raised her and the knot in her stomach grew because of the shame and pain that she still carried about her Mother’s passing.
By the time she got home that evening, Sequethia was exhausted by her ”normal” thoughts. She realized that most of what she thought about all day was based on anxiety about the future, or guilt and grievances from the past. She realized what a debilitating effect on her mental (and physical) body and she realized that her vacation back into “reality” had been a vacation back to hell. As a result of her vacation back to the “hell” in her mind, Sequethia was now ready to once again pull out the book” A Course In Miracles” and do the exercises.
She realized that her thoughts had been “meaningless” because they were all based on guilt about the past and anxiety about the future, because of the “meanings” she projected onto everything. My uncertain finances, and my regrettable professional performance “means” that I will always experience more economic turmoil, anxiety and suffering, and I deserve it because I’ve made poor decisions. The statistical shortage of available men means that I won’t meet one and I can’t be happy because if I am not partnered it “means” that I won’t be happy. My friends only call me when they want something, and this “means” that I really have no value to them unless I give of myself until it hurts and I resent this. My daughter (who I spent $48,000 a year educating) does not have a job and this “means” I am a bad parent and will never have my Mother’s approval (despite the truth that she’s gone now).
She realized that she created her “hell” by creating what each of her situations “meant”. Yet these “meanings” were only in her mind. She had made them up and they had influenced her view of herself, her view of the world, and her ability to be happy.
When she got home she “flew” to that bookcase, got A Course In Miracles, and worked with Lesson 11 “My Meaningless Thoughts Are Showing Me A Meaningless World”. As she worked with this she was able to reduce her level of stress and anxiety.
You too can reduce your level of “stress and anxiety” by working with the thought form “My Meaningless Thoughts Are Showing Me A Meaningless World”. You then begin to realize (on a deeper level) that your thought projections create your reality and if you change your thought projections, you can change your experience.