Posted on December 6, 2011 - Filed Under Rev. Jim
Sequethia was still reeling from the ideas that had polluted her mind during her “break”. She realized that her mind had run rampant and caused her so much anxiety, depression and fear that she could barely make it home from work. When she made it home, and realized that her “meaningless” thoughts had created a “meaningless” world she could finally accept that these thoughts were “meaningless” because the meaning that she placed on everything she saw determined how she felt about it. As a result, SHE was upsetting herself because of her thoughts about what she saw. Once she looked at A Course In Miracles more closely, she began to relax, because she then knew she could correct the thoughts that caused her so much anxiety. She silently thanked her cousin Gail for giving her this book as she opened it to Lesson 12.
Sequethia then asked herself, what was the key thought that was “meaningless” for me today? She realized in that moment that she had been running a “low grade” fever of anxiety because of her finances. The sponsoring thought that caused this “fever of anxiety” was that she wouldn’t get a raise because of the blowup she had in her business meeting. That meeting showed her an outer reflection of what she thought of the world. She had always seen herself as a victim, because of her personal attributes (her gender, her race, her marital status, the fact that she had been a “party girl”) and she realized that she believed that the world would always be hostile to her because of these things. As a result she thought she would always experience a dangerous, hostile, wicked, difficult world and that her life had to be a continual struggle filled with pain and drama.
What she failed to perceive was that despite her blowup (which is described using the link blowup) her job performance was stellar. Her research had allowed the company to make decisions that saved the company millions of dollars and her forecast had been more accurate than any forecasts the company had ever seen due to her keen business insights and her experience. Despite this overwhelming evidence to the contrary, she was convinced that she would be laid off.
She went into meditation, and the truth about her job performance became apparent to her. She then was able to own that most of this was her own projection, and that she created what she perceived by how she interpreted events. This caused her to become more committed to A Course In Miracles.
Sequethia decided to “come back” to stay. She was now ready to move deeper into the Consciousness of Miracles. Are you?
If so, ask yourself, “what is a key thought that takes me out of my peace today?”. Ask yourself, “what meaning have I placed on this thought?” You will find that YOU are writing the script for your life and that you can change it.